虽然总是这样，不管啦！

    我愿意尽力帮助值得我帮助的人，也许这会给我自己造成额外的负担。

    但是，请注意，我并没有义务一定要帮助你，所以不要理解为理所当然。

    我热衷全力做好我应承你的事，因为我一旦答应，不管是口头的还是书面的，我就会将其视为我的责任。

    但是，请注意，我为什么要应承你？甚至是我主动提出应承你？

    我可以应承了你，完成得乱七八糟，但是，我没有。我始终在努力做到最好。

    所以，请你给我一点理解。不要让我对这个世界失去信心，让我失去愿意再次帮助你的欲望。

 

periodically i get low.

i used to think that i am a competent advisor, who can both properly assess the ongoing situation and far-sightedly predict the upcoming prospect, though, when it comes to me, to myself, my whole life strategy kinda fail to work. 

i've got my own problems, although i'd like and cannot help offering my favors to those who are in adversity, and i have nobody to turn to. so i just talking myself into compromising with the harsh and unthinkable reality, which had turned out in a total another way from that i had conceived.

am i wrong? am i sticking to something that never applied to the reality?

i need to release, which means i need to give up some of my principles.

nobody is ever around me. 

i just wanna be as happy as before, which seems impossible for me at the moment.

我的人生即将跨入一个新的年头，嗯，加油！

我真的觉得《越狱》第三季拍到后面几集挺好看的！

    我不中意讲大话，因为动动嘴皮子远比动动手简单得多得多。

    大学让我成长，方方面面的。我知道自己并没有绝对地成熟，而是在相对地进步。这或许是因为自己以前太不谙世事，所以回过头看，发现自己的人生突然丰富了很多。如今我的人生即将进入一个新的阶段，不单是数字上的变化，更是一种对自己、对他人、对周遭的责任的一个巨大提升。有些害怕！

    18岁的那一天，尽管不完全是自己的选择，但是注定了我以后的人生轨迹。

    19岁的那一天，我还是一个恋家的小男孩，第一次体会在一个陌生的城市一个人；当时心潮澎湃，但好在我有一份不甘心的坚持。

    20岁的那一天，我接受命运的安排，独自开始承受、思考，知道了怨天尤人不过是徒劳；不过有一群异国的新朋友给了我一份美好的回忆。

    21岁的那一天，我开始为了自己的未来打量，没有过多的计较后果，只想踏踏实实，让自己进步。

    22岁的那一天，我会干什么呢？

    我还是原来的我。

    一个真正的成功的背后肯定有一种精神，从骨子里散发出来，渗透于行动力，体现在最终的成果。

    香港在上世纪从渔村跃为国际都市，其傲人的腾飞离不开香港精神的支持。

    香港娱乐圈其实就是整个香港社会的缩影。伴随着经济的腾飞，一批传奇的香港演艺巨星成为时代进程的参与人、见证者、甚至是标志。他们的成就是传奇，他们的成长经历是传奇，他们的去世是传奇。

    张国荣、梅艳芳、沈殿霞……每一个巨星，我们都能从他们身上找到具有神秘色彩、让人费解、极大地丰富了他们人物形象、与众不同的闪光点。

    红尘中人，也许他们更懂得生活的戏剧性，所以活得更斑斓，哪怕是付出生命的代价！

I do not know why I have passionately devoted so many private emotions to a distant celebrity whom I have in reality never met face to face. But a strong empathy I cannot help feeling for her, for her respectable work ethic, for her notable attitudes towards life, and her attentive care for her beloved daughter in particular.

Since she was reported to be susceptible to several infirmities about two years ago, I have deliberately managed to keep track of her personal conditions mostly through the Internet. Having watched her several interviews on TV, I have been deeply moved by her life-long love for her daughter, and felt pityful sympathy for her unsuccessful marriage which had kinda predestined the tragic ending of her seemingly brilliant life.

This whole afternoon, in continued flowing tears, I covered the special live show on TV which was aimed to provide a great occasion of pulic mourning. At the sorrowful gathering, condolences from both the upper class and the masses were offered. Some little clips of her time with her friends were shared. Her dermination, her attainments, her contributions and her love received high praise.

I appreciate and admire her!